I don鈥檛 know why this is so funny to you. I wouldn鈥檛 be living like this if I had a meaningful way to improve my situation without constant anxiety and adhd.
I thought you were playing into it, joking. But I believe you and listen, there is one who can heal and deliver you. And I鈥檓 not joking in this case. Call upon Jesus Christ, ask he reveal himself to you. God bless.