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Chronically ill Pretty Puppy with BPD ๐Ÿพ @EmmyExists Owns me

Joined October 2023
puppy plays the video game !
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literally, dude. for those of us with C-PTSD and dissossiative disorders and cluster B disorders adulthood doesnt rlly start until you start making real progress healing ur childhood trauma. u are literally stuck in the autopilot of an abused child until then.
I cannot stress enough to any 18-22 year olds following me that it is extremely normal and fairly okay to feel like youโ€™re โ€œnot an actual adultโ€ for at least a few more years. you are so young. you have so much time. your brain will not be torturing you the way it is now forever.
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i love my brain tricking me into thinking iโ€™m throwing up blood because i had a red drink earlier
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i might start streaming and also documenting my declining health, i would like to bring attention to the things i deal with as i feel the world would be better with people being more understanding. it would also be a nice memory for those who care ab me once my health takes me
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Kayla ๐Ÿพ retweeted
hey whats it called when you break out of your depression and start becoming a better person and then something happens that retraumatizes you all over again and your mental health takes a nose dive and you end up right where you started
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i had a wonderful night. iโ€™m so grateful to have the opportunity to be on this earth for the time i am. make sure to treat everyone with kindness and always do your best to be a positive impact on peoples life. also i love my wife. goodnight everyone โค๏ธ
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im no longer going to try to improve or compete, my health is at a point to where trying to be good at this game is impossible and i will only ever regress due to my rapidly regressing health. im putting too much mental strain trying to get better and i cant take it anymore.
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iโ€™m going back home tomorrow. very scary. i just want to say im super grateful for my wife, she has been the kindest and nicest girl ever to me and is the only reason ive been making it through the roughest part of my life, im so lucky and forever grateful for her. goodnight
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i feel very awesome that i had loud winning stage 2 and then champs i just felt something special about this group
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just subbed for games only to have 30% packet loss the whole time... gulp
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i thought the superstrikes stock skates were terrible but these feel ok iโ€™m not too upset
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why do my bones have to be disappearing i just want to be normal like everyone else please
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duality of the puppy.
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i may have slipped up today and been less positive than i wanted, but iโ€™ve been making good progress and iโ€™m happy. today wasnโ€™t the best but i will hold myself accountable and tomorrow and all the next days will be better!
starting today iโ€™m going to be a much more positive person. as long as i can remember ive let anxiety and stress destroy my mental state and reduce me to a person that i cant say im proud of. im sorry to anyone thats ever been effected by my negative mood.
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6 months from now everyone will know me
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starting today iโ€™m going to be a much more positive person. as long as i can remember ive let anxiety and stress destroy my mental state and reduce me to a person that i cant say im proud of. im sorry to anyone thats ever been effected by my negative mood.
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no words needed
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this is me and my wife i must admit
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i sprained my wrist :( the one i aim with too
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wife got me to play deadlock for the first time, i had a lot of fun!! iโ€™m rly bad at it but it was so enjoyable >_<
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