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My biggest relationship regret was being with a Muslim lesbian who hid me from her family and friends. She lied about having no past partners in her life, and when I caught on, she accused me of being insecure and paranoid. I spent weeks heartbroken, trying to explain myself in broken Turkish, unable to understand why she was emotionally hurting me, lying about it, and then getting angry at me. Forgiving her was a mistake. She broke up with me once and continued to hurt me criticizing me for being too young, telling me I should change my style, how I sit, and how I dress. I am a bodybuilder who spent years looking good and learning to love myself; yet, she despised almost everything about me and constantly tried to change who I was. Eventually, she left me a second time, choosing to believe her online friends over me. Behind my back, she agreed to have kids with someone else, dropping that bombshell right before and after the breakup. This was the same woman who took my virginity and wanted to leave me immediately because meeting my family was too much pressure.