aliveIIc

Just got drained for every dollar I had in my hot wallets. Not like I haven't been here before, I guess we run it back. Will be changing all of my wallets and starting fresh. Can't let your guard down for even a second in this space.

Day 308. It is undeniable that I am dedicated, disciplined, consistent and focused. Clearly there is something that I am missing or maybe still have yet to understand. It drives me so mental that I am not clearing 6 figure months when I KNOW I have the ability. I genuinely cannot fucking sleep at night or do anything else in my life contently because changing my life through trading and crypto is all that takes up my mind space. I started this Daily posting journey as a way to hold myself accountable to showing up everyday and being transparent no matter the results. It pains me every time that I have to post such a shitty outcome to the TL because I know that I am better than this. I have nothing to prove to anyone in this space but gosh dammit man I have people that depend on me and all I can think about when I fall short is how I let them down every time I under preform. It ends up being an endless cycle that sometimes my mind cannot escape and it takes too long for me to find my groove again. I have done decently well thus far but all I can ever see is the areas that I fall short, I am my biggest enemy and I need it to stop. This is not a pitty party, it is me recognizing that there are gaps in my skill that I am looking to close. One can only achieve those outsized returns by taking this as serious as a Professional Athlete takes their sport. Please, anyone who is out there pulling 6 figure months and reads this to the end help me understand. What am I missing? What do I not yet understand? How can I stop myself from being in my own way to reaching that escape velocity that I am reaching for in my performance? I will never fucking stop. November Goal: Green every day FAILED❌

Day 307. All this shit just to die one day. Daily.

Day 306. Not the daily green I was anticipating. Daily.

Day 305. Goals for this month 1. Green everyday 2. Build up cash/stable reserves 3. Read my Bible for minimum of 20 minutes/day 4. Dial back in gym routine (Got injured earlier this month) LETS WIN! Daily.

Day 304. +$23,800 for October (skewed for SOL price action, I hold most of it but will change my habits going forward) Having over $20k in losing days is fucking horrible and should never happen. It is quite embarrassing that I basically rinsed my two best trades of the month gambling on bullshit pairs and donating to people I know that don't deserve my money. I fucking hate losing. Repeating the same thing over and over again is not a mistake, it is a decision and that bullshit ends in OCT 2026. Mark my words, next month will be my first month with all green days. 6 figure months in my near future all shown every day on the TL. Daily.

Day 303. Nothing annoys me more than tracked wallets controlling markets. I will never become one of these fucking pumpfun parasites. I hate anything that breeds envy and will not contribute to it. Fuck you, gn. Daily.

Day 302. There are grown ass men dressing up as things they are not all weekend and getting drunk for another day on the calendar. If you showed up for you today, you are winning. Daily.

Day 301. My biggest enemy is me. Daily.

Day 300. It's just money. Daily.

I hope that I am Mexican in every lifetime

Day 299. If you are seeing this, you are so due for a pay day. Daily.

Day 298. Ready for a new week. Daily.

Day 297. Started today -19 SOL in the first hour of trading. Some of you motherfuckers don't know shit about resilience and it shows. Raise the bar. Daily.

Day 296. PvP PvP PvP PvP PvP PvP PvP PvP Vamp Vamp Vamp Vamp Vamp Vamp Vamp OTC OTC OTC OTC OTC OTC OTC OTC STONK STONK STONK STONK STONK STONK STONK Nigga I am going insane. Daily.

Day 295. Only so many vamps a man can handle. Daily.

Day 294. Seems to me that every time I have a great day trading that I always spend the next few sessions bidding the literal worst coins on chain. Need to break this bad habit, not every trade is going to be that big hitter like I subconsciously expect. Daily.