🔞Blue Ogre 👹✏️ (COMMS CLOSED)

Because of your requests, I'm making a thread with backstories, lore and trivia of some of my characters, in English. So if you're interested, I will gradually show more of them under this post for accessibility. 🧵

Sadashi

How does she hide that thing and why not in my mouth

Being a very anxious artist sucks. Sometimes it feels painful to even hover over the "post" button, I get anxious when I'm done drawing. I always feel less. But at least criticism doesn't hurt me cuz that means somebody wants me to improve. But wanting to draw and seeing the result is stronger than my anxiety, so it's a loop. I rarely stop feeling this way. I used to tear up when I was about to post couple years ago but less now. I also want to engage in some trends or social interactions but then I feel stupid if I do. So basically I'm doing this to myself. Maybe it's RSD or something.

Jackie, Noro, Kulu

Ehhhh I haven't been passionate about any character or media lately to want to draw fan art of them...

Jackie and Kulu

This place is so funny cuz sometimes I read what some ppl I follow write when I scroll feed and subconsciously it puts me into this state as if I somehow know them like pals or even what kind of people they are, in a kind of a parasocial way, but I never spoke to them before. But then I see something and think "oh that one person would probably like this thing". Wonder if anybody feels that way about me, although I never really share my thoughts. It'd be bunch of esoteric nonsense tho or me being really gay. Idk I'm always thinking I shouldn't overshare my life cuz some of you are SCARY! Actually what can I eat that'd be really unusual but accessible?? I could use a recommendation. And don't poison me

Momo (for Nyym)

Bunch of people impersonating me, leading me on, stealing my content and not giving me any credit I guess🤷‍♀️ But there's plenty of people who were really nice to me and supported me too, thank you those who did

I yearn...

How do I get good at DBD as a Killer player? I haven't started too long ago but the bully squads and sweats are making it really difficult now. I play Pig and Legion.

I usually start seeing all of the errors when I'm about to say that I'm done with the work - "oh, I messed up the eye" or "this could use more volume". Then I need a day or two for the drawing to really marinate to see if I still like it or not, but at that point it's already too late cuz usually I post it. After that, I look back and ponder - how the hell did I draw that? Try to recreate the process in my head, but it's quite foggy - drawing process, especially rendering, feels very strange, like I don't understand how I draw if I actually try to think about it actively. It comes back to me when I start working on the next piece though - I start remembering some of the new tricks I learned (I've been making accents around soft shadows with harder lines for example recently) and self-reference - I look at my previous drawing to see if I can stay consistent or develop from there.