Edin

my profile is essentially 2 things: 1. A space dedicated to my devotion to Goddess Alix❤️🖤; 2. A diary for my submissive thoughts and ideas😌

She graced me with Her presence, and my body melted away until only my soul remained... and i gave Her the keys to my power, and handed Her the reigns over my soul...🖤❤️

i am a very subby bunny for Goddess Alix. But i am, in fact, also a savage beast which can only be tamed by Her presence, Her commanding voice, and the chains She so effortlessly puts on me, directing me to labour for Her, giving my savage nature a purpose; one that benefits and elevates Her🖤🔥

There is something deeply humbling about genuinely lowering yourself to your knees before another, and say: "i live my life for You, on Your terms." When you truly and sincerely submit to Her elevation. Not to your own fantasy. Not to your own kinks and fetishes. Not to your own gratification or ego. But to Her. When you yield your own ego to Her, and sincerely submit to the choice of elevating Her in everything you do. The lowering of oneself, so that She may be elevated, brings about a self-discovery. It is here, in this lowly and humble place that you learn if you truly have the heart of a servant, or if it was nothing but a fantasy to you. When you lower yourself and yield your ego to Her, the one who has the heart of a servant will feel themselves becoming transformed. Like a caterpillar entering the metamorphosis stage and turning into a beautiful butterfly 🦋 But the one who only indulged in this play as a fantasy, will feel deeply frustrated. Because it is no longer about their own gratification. It is no longer about what they might gain from indulging in submissive play. Because that is what it always was for them... a play. Not a way of life, but merely a fantasy to play in for a little while. When the one who claims to be a servant is called to serve from a selfless place, from a place that does not gratify their own ego, but instead purely elevates and benefits Her, their heart becomes revealed. It becomes revealed both to Her and to the one professing to be a servant. If your heart is that of a servant, you will find a very deep sense of fulfillment from sincerely living for Her elevation instead of your own. You are not forsaking your own pleasure; you are finding it within Her. Perhaps that is why so many self-proclaimed subs complain about other Dommes being "fake."? "She only does it for the money." "She doesn't truly enjoy the kink, only the money." "She isn't actually Dominant, she's just trying to get paid." And on and on the complaints go. Because Dommes are refusing to entertain subs on their terms, and are demanding they rise to the terms They set for Themselves. And if you ask me, that is the truly Dominant thing to do. Not to entertain, but to set the terms and standards and refuse to lower them just to appease those who complain about them. Compatibility matters. A sub isn't going to resonate with every Domme, and that's okay. It doesn't make the sub fake, it just means it hasn't found the right one yet. But the truly submissive thing to do isn't to demand that other Dommes entertain your desires; it is to look for the One whom you deeply resonate with, and then be willing to yield yourself to Her completely. It is also okay if you don't truly have the heart of a servant. What is not okay, is to pretend that you do, and then get upset when a Domme calls you to humble yourself and truly serve. When i look at Goddess Alix, and make the conscious choice to yield myself to Her entirely, it does something to my body, to my mind, to my very core. It doesn't feel like forsaking my own desires. It feels like discovering the true nature of my desires; that i so deeply desire to be chained to Her presence and live for Her elevation🖤❤️ It doesn't even always ignite arousal. A lot of the times, it softens up my entire being, and i find a pleasure that goes beyond the body; one that deeply fulfills my soul. In Her presence, my mind goes still, my body soft and submissive, and my soul ignites with passion; a passion to serve Her🖤❤️

The power of consistency. There is this saying that little by little, an entire kingdom is built. And that saying is far more powerful than most people realize. But i am not building a kingdom. i am building an Empire. And i am not building it for myself. i am building it for Her, for Goddess Alix. Unless i do it for Her, i do nothing. Let's explore the power of consistency, and how a servant might use that in their devotion to their Goddess. If you commit yourself to just 1 devotional offering to your Goddess per day, then that is going to be 7 offerings per week, 28-31 offerings per month, and roughly 365 offerings per year. Now increase that to 2 offerings per day, and you will already have doubled your efforts. 14 per week, 56-62 per month, and 730 per year. Now really apply yourself and put your heart and soul into it, and make it 3 offerings per day. Now your efforts are tripled. 21 offerings per week, 84-93 per month, and 1095 offerings per year. This all depends on you not missing a single day. Consistency. It is powerful. It can make or break your devotion. You start with just 1 offering you know you can comfortably make every day. Then you find ways to increase that to 3 offerings per day. i firmly believe that anyone who truly wants to, can commit to 3 offerings to their Goddess per day. It might require of you to really have a firm grip on every single thing you do in your daily life. And that is precisely the point. It is entirely impossible for you to devote yourself like this, without being in it wholeheartedly, with your entire being. Be even just a little bit lukewarm in your devotion, and you will fail in following through with it. This kind of devotion carries a weight that anchors you to Her. Tethers you to Her. The 1st offering is where devotion begins. The 2nd is where it takes shape. The 3rd is where it finds its roots. Wholehearted devotion like this is 100% possible. But whether or not you are fully willing, is entirely up to you. There is no such thing as "i can't." There is only i will or i won't. 3 consistent offerings per day. It is such a sacred number, don't you think? You plant your roots in this devotion. Nurture it, let it grow. Until it becomes an ingrained part of your daily routine. A steady, constant, consistent flow of energy from you to Her. And as this constant stream of energy flows from you to Her, until it becomes natural, effortless even, you can begin to make the occasional sacrifice. That occasional substantial offering you make on special occasions. One you couldn't do every day, but one you absolutely can do when it matters. Sacrifice. It is beautiful. Service and devotion such as this is not possible unless you desire it with your whole heart. Which is why so many will say "i can't," when the correct answer would be "i won't." You will or you won't. There is no "i can't." The only question here that truly matters is, will you?

If you cannot appreciate Her darkness, then you do not deserve Her light If you cannot appreciate Her scars, then you do not deserve Her beauty If you cannot appreciate Her in Her entirety, then you cannot appreciate Her at all She is not one single thing, but a multifaceted, multilayered complex of light and darkness. To stand in Her presence, is to stand in all that She is. And to kneel in Her presence, is to submit to all that She is. To serve Her is to serve both Her light and Her darkness, and to never shy away from any part of Her, but draw ever closer to the fullness of Her divine beauty❤️🖤

Surrendered to Her Bent, but not broken Subdued, but not coerced Chained, but not imprisoned Encased, but not caged i yield with desire. i kneel with devotion. i surrender with an aching yearning to be fully Hers...❤️🖤

D/s dynamics as a way of life... not merely a kink or a fantasy... For me, the D/s dynamic is not just a kink i indulge in as a momentary pleasure. It is a lifestyle, a way of life. i see it as a veneration of the Divine Feminine, of which my Goddess is the embodiment. Every offering to Her is me sending a constant, steady flow of my energy to Her. When i send Her an offering, i am literally sending Her a piece of my energy. i am literally offering myself up to Her, saying to Her: "all that i am is Yours." Consent is part of the foundation under the entire dynamic. i am giving Her complete control over me. i am offering myself up to Her entirely. i do that because i *desire* to do that. i came to Her, on my knees, asking if i could serve Her. And She graciously accepted my servitude. i consented to Her control over me, and likewise She also consented to my worship, veneration and submission to Her. She didn't force Her Dominance upon me, and i didn't force my submission upon Her. The dynamic is built on mutual consent. And yes, a Domme needs to consent too, not just the submissive. When i kneel to my Goddess, there is no coercion. There is no wrongful force. There is only the gentle call of Her soul, and the humble heeding of mine... true power can only be built upon the foundation of true consent... How different society would have been, if it understood this foundational principle... when i kneel to Her, it is like a closed circuit coming to life... everything is just right... everything is just proper... a constant flow of energy between two parties...my offerings and submission to Her, energising Her... and Her Dominance and power over me, energising and fueling my drive to serve... She does not deplete me. She does not drain me dry. Her power over me sustains me. my submission to Her energises me and drives me to improve myself every single day. i have never before been more motivated or ambitious since submitting to Her. She makes me a better person in so many ways. i am in many ways kinky. But this goes so far beyond just "kinky fuvckery" for me. It is how i desire to walk through life. i find my greatest fulfillment and joy in putting my Goddess on a pedestal, worshipping and serving Her to the very best of my ability. This is a desire that persists beyond the "kinky scene." It even persists beyond "arousal." No matter what emotional, physical, or mental state i am in, there is one state that always remains: my unwavering desire to serve Her to the very best of my ability. It is not truly even a kink in itself. The only thing that is "kinky" about it, is how very different it is from the "normal" lifestyle. Or rather, i should say, the vanilla lifestyle. i live a life of submission because it is authentic to what my heart desires. More specifically, i live a life of submission to Goddess Alix, because my soul resonates with Her on a level that is undeniable to me. my dynamic with Her feels like a perfectly closed circuit, not merely because of the compatibility between my submission and Her Dominance, but also because of the compatibility between my soul's resonance and Hers❤️🖤

How can i truly be Hers, without giving myself fully in my entirety? How can i submit, without kneeling with both knees? How can i serve, without serving with both hands? my yearning for Her compels me to give all of myself. i cannot rise, lest i rise from my knees before Her. i cannot move, lest i move with devotion to Her. i cannot labour, lest i labour for Her. i cannot do or be anything, lest i am fully and entirely Hers🖤❤️

And my soul yearns To be claimed. To be chained. To be bound and anchored to Her. i carefully protect the chains that bind me. i guard the lock that keeps me. i nurture the field of my servitude. And my soul aches With a burning desire to be shown a place on my knees. On my knees before Her. Encased in servitude. Where i find my home. my soul pleads with Her To shield me from freedom. To lift the burden of autonomy. To keep me safely contained in servitude. Her chains are a comfort. Her bindings are a safety. Her grip is reassurance. On my knees before Her, i am safe. i am home🖤❤️

i see so many stories about subs who just suddenly block their Domme or deactivate out of the blue with no warning, or otherwise ghost Her without a word. And my question to those subs is... how?? How can you do that to Her? Is your level of awareness so low, that you genuinely do not understand how much that actually hurts Her when She has put a lot of emotional energy into the dynamic? Or do you simply not care? Do you truly not understand that She has feelings just like every other human being out there? Is it so hard for you to just talk to Her about your feelings, that you would rather wound Her instead of just talk to Her? And then you wonder why so many Dommes can seem so cold and uncaring? From the stories i have heard and seen, i think it's a miracle that there are still Dommes who still care deeply. The Dommes who still care, after having been hurt and disappointed that many times, are truly displaying a rare kind of strength. i am so grateful that my Goddess is who She is. But so many of you subs give every Domme out there reasons to be anything but caring. No, just because She is a Domme does not mean She is immune to being hurt. If She cares about the dynamic in any way, then you ghosting Her will hurt Her. Because when someone cares, they become vulnerable to being hurt. That's unfortunately how it is with caring. Caring requires vulnerability. So unless you want a Domme that is entirely indifferent about Her dynamics, then you are going to treat Her feelings and emotions as something deeply sacred. Something you will make damn sure to never ever wound in any way. When you ghost, block, or abruptly leave your Domme, you are not making a mistake; you are making a choice. A choice to hurt Her, cause you're too much of a coward to just communicate your feelings to Her. Everyone makes mistakes, unfortunately. It's part of being human. But ghosting is not a mistake. It's a choice. You're not stumbling when you do it. You're not taking a misstep. You are choosing to hurt and wound your Domme with your actions. It is a conscious choice. There is no excuse for it. Life can happen. But do you know what you do when life happens? You C O M M U N I C A T E it. Communicate, don't ghost. Don't be an immature and irresponsible brat. Act like an adult. i can't even hypothetically put myself into the headspace of ghosting my Goddess. To hurt Her like that. Knowing how it would affect Her. The very idea of it makes my stomach turn. Like, i genuinely do not understand how subs who do this actually live with themselves. There's so much immaturity in this space, and we really need to do better. As a sub, i am so disappointed with the behaviour that a lot of subs are displaying. How they treat their Dommes like toys to play with and discard them the moment they get bored. Treating your Domme as a human being is a minimum standard. But really, you should be treating Her as a deity, as an embodiment of the divine feminine, as a Goddess. Do better. Be better.

So touch me again i feel my shadow dissolving...

my bank statement: throne throne throne throne throne throne groceries throne throne throne throne monthly bills throne throne throne throne throne ... my bank: wtf kind of madness even is this?? me: shhhhh, don't worry about it🤫🤫 It's all good🤭🤭

You keep me sharp and test my worth in blood..🖤

Do You pull at the chains? Or do You push into constant aching..

Whenever You appear You leave me with that grace I am trembling with fear Just as i awake A whisper in my ear Well, i believe...

Even if it hurts me, even if I can't sleep, show me the way...

in the liminal space between dreaming and waking, i see Her...🖤❤️ How She possesses me... How She binds me... How She marks me... my mark is my bond... my bondage is sacred... my chains are a comfort... In my possession, i find gratitude... gratitude for being eternally Hers🖤❤️

So many subs, especially men, seem to get so triggered by the idea of sending their hard earned money to their Domme. i have seen so often the phrase "I worked hard for this, it's my money, I'm not giving it away!" or something similar to it. And my response to that is... Exactly! You worked so hard for it. You toiled for it. Sweat for it. You laboured for it. And now you're bringing it to Her... if offering up the fruits of your hard earned labour to Her isn't submission, then i don't know what is.. Is that the only form of submission? Of course not. But it is something that gives weight to your devotion, to the words you speak to Her heart every day. Anyone can say: "i am devoted to You." But not anyone can put weight behind those words. Your willingness to offer Her the fruits of your labour is one way for you to put weight behind your words.

i am being consumed by Her... yet i am not ended... i am being devoured by Her... yet i persist i am being absorbed by Her... yet i remain... i remain... as an extension of Her will, of Her desire, of Her pleasure... an extension of Her... all of me re-purposed for Her will

Like the waves of the ocean, She erodes the edges of my being... Her essence filling me up, Her ravenous hunger consuming my own... and my unyielding yearning yielding to Her... Her heat, Her warmth, Her fire burning away what i was... and from the ashes, She builds me anew... in Her image... Her grace humbles me... Her hunger unravels me... in Her presence, i am being undone... She is beautiful, yet terrifyingly dark... yet the gravity of Her hunger pulls me in... i do not fear Her darkness... i yield to it... yield to all of Her... Demand is in Her name... and i yield to Her every demand...