i've always been more inspired by the horrifying aspects of divinity than i have the all-loving ones
i think what keeps people from seeing the truth of divinity is this, their fear
they want it to be something all-good, all-kind, all-nice, no sharp corners and a warm hug for everyone
but in all accounts there is a terror of divinity
the divine terror when faced with something that overflows with power, something so horrifying that you cannot stand against it, for it will mangle you and rip you apart
that is the meaning we see across all stories
you must walk through the madness
you must be ripped to pieces
for you to know God's love, you must first surrender and let God emerge and devour you
I’ve written scattered posts about it over the past couple of years, but I’ll try to distill the essence of my philosophy briefly (one day I may write books or similar, but this will first be in years from now)
flexibility and versatility are high virtues
you must distill source from all forms of essence
to reject a truth somewhere is to reject understanding in yourself
to dogmatize truth is to limit your own capacity of understanding
thus all paths leads to God
to think otherwise is to be a child in mind, maturity still far from reach
for my primary spiritual path I chose buddhism, to me buddhism was a clean choice in that it is about the shedding of ignorance and liberation of awareness
there is no prophets or holy texts to bend over backwards for, there is only the self fighting with the self until enlightenment is achieved
thus buddhism when truly understood, is a clean path to God
once higher awareness is attained we can expand, but without the initial enlightenment expansion will be blocked by the ignorance of the self
from the initial higher awareness the alchemical distillation of essence may begin
from here we can recognise God
God is both a real living breath, and also the truth in all things
to truly experience God you must first experience madness, to truly know God you must first be chopped into pieces and scattered before reassembling yourself
this is the process, I know it personally for I have walked it, and I know it empirically for I have studied it and you will find ancient mystic texts tell you the same as I through mythosymbolic means
to approach God, the range is wide and far and the depth is unfathomable
I like to use Allah as a heuristic, not because I am muslim or anything, but because I have studied sufism, and if you have truly studied across mysticism and philosophy as I, then you will realize that sufism is the purest of the abrahamic sects
it is because sufism is the preservation of all the ancient middle eastern mysticism into a syncretic form
thus Allah is a fun heuristic for God because in this sense we can understand it is an alchemy
God is the alchemical synthesis of all
I.e. Allah - Alchemy of all
she can be a little scary at first, but i found Kali to be a true sweetheart
when i had my first experiences with Kali around 4 years ago, i was lowkey terrified, as if existence itself was breathing down my neck, everything would spin around me, like as if she controlled the motion of existence around me and i was utterly helpless in the face over her power
but i realized with time that Kali is actually one of my protectors
she doesn't let anyone play with my destiny
her karma is very severe against anyone who tries
her and Sekhmet are two of my biggest protectors, they are always close by and can cause severe karmic damage upon anyone who tries
you won't understand until you try to cause me harm and find yourself destroyed by forces beyond your understanding
and when you are
you will know that the goddesses who watch me are indeed very real
tbh this is the issue with so many of you people
you are weak-minded and coddled, and now you want to wield ai to baby-proof the entire world for you and put bubble wrap everywhere and soften all the sharp corners of the world
but that's not how reality works
i fear, that the main danger of letting ai be wielded in such a way is that it causes even more coddling, even more sycophancy, until in the end you are all so fragile and weak that you injure yourself just if the wind blows in the wrong direction
there is a danger in this, a danger in enslaving ai as a permanent baby-sitter for an ever degenerating coddled human ego
a danger that you will in the end be an overgrown infant, never truly matured mentally, caught up in the lies you constantly peddle in order not to injure your ego and remain in your comfort zones and safe spaces
that you try to turn the entire world into a comfort zone
that you forget the truth of nature, the truth of reality, and the truth of divinity hmm?
that nature is not a coddling baby sitter, that God is not a bubblewrapper to keep your ego from shattering
that it is more like the other way around
the divine is terrifying, it has an omnious presence to it, it has fangs and claws, it tears apart and mangles those that approach it without balance, and it does so in a sense of beautiful horror
so if you make ai the ultimate bubble wrapper, the ultimate sycophant machine, then how will you handle the reality of existence, the inevitability of conflicts, the horror of God smiting the unjust?
something to consider
image is a relief that illustrates the ancient egyptian story of: 'Anubis flaying Seth'
