fuwo

Hi, this is Fuwo. Since not everyone followed my Instagram account, i think people here deserve to know regarding my condition and situation. I will copy and paste it in this thread, might change it a bit too.

And lastly, I will be taking steps forward and hoping things improve from here. Thank you, for anyone who reads this until the end, i appreciate it a lot...

Also, i would like to apologize especially to all my clients and the vgen staffs for all the discomfort I've caused. And i would love to thank my clients who decided to be patient and continue to work with me.

Right now I'm in huge debt because my savings have gone to treatment and medications, and I’ve had to refund some clients due to my relapse. It’s been tough, i don't know anymore actually, going to the hospital as often as possible is very exhausting as well.

I was so in despair to even open people's messages, thinking that I've been disappointing and upset them in many ways. It was really suffocating as i was immobilized and hard to even move.

Physically, your head felt hurt like something tied your head tightly. You would oversleep everyday and you lose your appetite. Having zero energy as well. And the worst thing, you would feel the urge to k*ll yourself even when your heart didn't wish so.

For me, relapsing feels like a heavy chest, constant anxiety and losing interest in things I normally enjoy. Even simple routines, like showering or brushing my teeth, can feel like big tasks. Negative thoughts of everything and feeling guilty are something you cannot bear.

But then, i was so stupid with overworking myself for more than 12 hours a day with almost no time to rest or enjoy anything. I didn’t realize how much it was draining me until I fell into a relapse.

I was diagnosed with Major Depressive Disorder years ago, and recently my diagnosis changed to Recurrent Depressive Disorder. This means my symptoms come in cycles, chronic, can be heavy, and can relapse unexpectedly. My doctor said i could only suppress the symptoms.

I know I’ve been distant and quiet, and it was never intentional. I really wish to be transparent about my condition, but keep in mind that i don't wish for anyone's pity. I just hope some people will understand or try to.

Oh my god finallyyyy I'm a lot better right now! Like I'm in full energy and no more headache and nausea? Wow i can finally work again I'm so excited ✨✨

Aaaaa you're very sweet as always, thank you Fell! I needed this so badly 🥺

I finally told my clients about my condition. I feel so guilty right now, i feel so unprofessional... Haven't checked their replies because I'm scared to disappoint them.

Would they believe me though... Ajhdhshsbah i want to continue working but every time i see a screen i feel nauseous 🥹

I overworked again and got a fever :' i still have a lot of deadlines aaaaa what should i do, i swear i didn't want this to happen. I already asked my clients for deadline extensions (because of the birthday thing) but i would feel so guilty if i had to do it twice 😭

Thank you very much! I'm very sorry for the inconvenience i might have caused. Right now I will answer Vgen's DMs one by one as well as trying to make progress even a little! Thank you very much for your understanding 💝

Cool and cute at the same time?! 😭💝✨

Please support my Vtuber child! 🥺💝