Lilith ૮ ˶ᵔ ᵕ ᵔ˶ ა

anyone with bpd and mdd, please tell me how to feel better. I cant stand this feeling. at all.

Someone needs to either kill me or give me some hardcore drugs because this fucking sucks. I hate this. Im so unhappy. Nothing is fun. Nothings entertaining. I genuinely dont know what to even do about it anymore.

I hate having flaws. I hate being insecure. I know im pretty, I know im good at art, at writing, and many things. But i just cant see it with someone elses eyes. Just my own. This dysorphia, its painful. I just wanna take someone elses eyes, I dont care if its the same emerald green as my own, the same downturned doe eyes, I dont care if its pretty. I just wanna use someone elses for once.

BPD is the only illness where the symptoms get filed under personality. Depression gets sympathy because it's legible. you're sad, you're in bed, people get it. BPD presents as behavior. you text too much, you go cold, you block someone, you're fine then you're not. All of it looks like choices. So everyone concludes it's your temperament, and temperament doesn't get flowers.

they fucking lied bro, they all lied ab my meds. They said an antipsychotic would make me feel good? GOD THEY ONLY DRUG ME UP TO MAKE IT EASIER FOR THEM "oh u r sooo much better on these meds" YEAH BC IM SO DEPRESSED AND FLAT I CANT FUNCTION? THESE MEDS ARENT MEANT TO MAKE ME BETTER, ITS MEANT TO MAKE ME EASIER.

how tf do u guys avoid getting nic tolerance? if i hit it more than three times ill get tolerance immedietly

#edtwt #shedtwt NEED MORE EDTWT OOMFS ESP BULLIMIC OOMFS RN PLSLSLSLSLSLLSLS

#edtwt #shedtwt Guys how to purge quietly...pls answerrr

*paws at you* Can i have a ciggy *paws at you* Can i have a ciggy *paws at you* Can i have a ciggy *paws at you* Can i have a ciggy *paws at you* Can i have a ciggy *paws at you* Can i have a ciggy *paws at you* Can i have a ciggy *paws at you* Can i have a ciggy

need cigarette need cigarette need cigarette need cigarette need cigarette need cigarette need cigarette need cigarette

random oomf ive never spoken to got hscked😭

#edtwt #shedtwt what are some apps/websites that helped u guys lose weight....and also what to do if u have no scale 😭

Loaf

home from hospital...ughhghg

coughcough

might pop like a soda can,

drunk again oosies

omg fuck conclave man

did none of the four people who viewed my last post realize it was a hometeas ref