Croni 🍭🎀【VTUBER】

╰┈ 🎀 𝖂𝖊𝖑𝖈𝖔𝖒𝖊 𝖙𝖔 𝕿𝖍𝖊 𝕹𝖊𝖈𝖗𝖔𝖓𝖎𝖛𝖆𝖑! hyper, sussy, and silly in the head – i'm croni the carnival zombie.ᐟ ┈⭑twitch.tv/necronival ┈⭑discord.gg/necronival ┈⭑linktr.ee/necronival 𝕻𝖓𝖌𝖘 𖬺 𝕬𝖘𝖘𝖊𝖙𝖘 𝕭𝖊𝖑𝖔𝖜 🎀 ┈─╮

i'm sorry for worrying everyone with this, and thank you for all the kind messages 😭 my heart is so full... i'm very grateful to every single one of you some clarification to avoid misunderstandings: when i say trauma, i am referring to my own childhood trauma that caused me to have severe sociophobia. it's something i've struggled with all my life... i never really had friends before vtubing, and still doesn't have friends irl (I'm working on it in therapy, dw!). it is NOT trauma from a vtuber or any sort of drama! i've had bad interactions on here, as all of us have, but nothing that has left lasting harm i'm mentally ill; i've always been open about it. and sometimes i get overwhelmed with emotions like this. i've calmed down now, and feeling much better. again, thank you for all the kind messages, it's going to take me a bit to respond to everyone, but i can't stress how much they've helped me 🫂 if you relate to this, and is also feeling alone: it might seem contradictory, but you are not alone in that feeling. the eye is the loneliest organ, never knowing it is only one half of a pair. i hope we'll all find our missing half one day 🩷

i wish i was the kind of vtuber who can make friends easily. people always tell me "it's about who you know", but i just... want to be friends with people. i want to belong, for once. when i see other vtubers finding their place, their people in vtubing, i feel so happy for them and yet also so alone. i want to have that too. i wish i didn't have this trauma that makes every social situation feel like an insurmountable wall. i wish people know how hard i try. i wish people would try for me too. just once. but i'll settle on trying my hardest in the meantime. i'll reach out and get ignored, again and again. i'll send awkward messages and overthink of how annoying i probably sound. i'll worry about people even when the thought of me doesn't cross their mind. i'll wait silently as my existence pass the world like a breeze. i'll keep trying, like i have for all 23 years of my life. it's all i know how to do. thank you for being here, and thank you for trying with me. maybe i'll find a place i belong to one day 🩷

"my vtuber model can't do this" YES IT CAN! ANY model can do this! all you need to do is: make a model with just arms in vroid > import to xranimator > overlay on obs. now you have expressive hands you can flip your chat off with!

BWAH! 🎁 croni just received a contribution towards Croni's Surgery Fund! Part 2 from johnnyomalley via Throne 🎪 throne.com/necronival