ive been regurgitating the same shit to my romantic partners for the past 8 years im so fucking annoyed my wounds run so deep and theyre still affecting the way i act to this day
i dont know why im so obsessed with being a sinner and repenting for my sins im not even religious but i feel this innate need to be forgiven by a god and to have my sins washed so i can be reborn i feel like im so thoroughly tainted and i dont know what to do
someone hurt me badly 8 years ago and all ive done is dug myself deeper into my own problems i dont know if i can come back im so ashamed
the concept of us both looking back at old messages 😭😭😭 wishing things could be how they used to be 😭😭😭😭😭😭
are bad people allowed to feel sad? ive become a terrible person so it feels like im not allowed to cry anymore but i dont know if thats because i have genuine guilt for my actions or im indirectly playing victim
shaming at her for being a bird knowing damn well im the one whos been emotionally manipulating her into it…. i win i win i win

