Kel

Was just in Waterstones and found this familiar green book. Mark wrote that!

I found this really helpful today at addiction group therapy. I thought some of you lovely people might be interested in this, too.

Spooky Halloween girl finished her latest addiction group therapy course today 🥳 My next one starts next Thursday. I bloody love attending group therapy and learning new shit. It's so beneficial to my recovery.

Should be sleeping. Instead I have been displaying pumpkin lights on top of my TV at 3:30am due to sudden impulsivity. I love them 😍 NOW I will try to sleep.

Aw. I had to build a teeny tiny Wednesday. Can't be bothered to look for her Thing sidekick right now. I need to try & sleep. I look forward to whatever vivid dreams I have tonight 🙄 This is a symptom from the new Venlafaxine medication I take. It helps my MH, but not my dreams!

Here we go. I'll show my progress during this. I'm just looking at what's included right now as it is 2:30am and I have to be up very early to travel to my addiction group therapy session. It was meant to be on Tuesday but the day was changed. This is my last session here ☹️

Ooh. I am loving building things right now. You start, get completely absorbed, look at the clock and somehow 5 hours have passed. It's bloody great for noisy brains. It keeps the chatter quiet. Would you like to see the finished Wednesday Lego set, when I finally complete it?

Watching a true crime documentary and I've got my beautiful boy snoring away with his lil doggie arm wrapped over me 🥺 Rescuing him 8 months ago was one of the best things I've ever done. Did I rescue him, or did he rescue me?

T-Dog has stolen my new spooky blanket

OMG these bags are so cute!

Mark and I are working on something top secret at the club 🤫 he's in the background here hoovering whilst I am glueing false nails on 😂 we are about to go upstairs to continue working on our project. I hope I can speak about it soon. Working here is so great! I love this place.

The fake blood and green, blue and purple eyeliner/body paint/eyeshadow that I was going to use for my Sally (Nightmare before Christmas) costume turned up just in time for Hallowe- oh wait.

Finally got some sleep last night and ended up having the most awful dreams. I've been feeling rattled for ages now. In one of them I got really drunk and had a fight with my equally drunk dad. In the other my bloody dog ran away 😭😭😭 my anxiety is sky high now. Stupid dreams!

Standing over me, guarding me. I think he knows I'm not feeling great. He is practicing his Resting Bitch Face right now 🙃

Things have been going well, and the new medication the doctor put me on has definitely made a difference. Mark says the light has come back on within me. But I still have mental health spirals. It's happening tonight. The feeling of dread and doom is a lot. It'll pass soon.

My parents got me this as a sober-versary gift. They know I like building stuff.. but I think they're trying to mentally break me with this one 😂 I bloody love it but this is going to be hard for me and my arthritis.

Found an injured crow on the field. Went to get a box to put it in so we can take it to a rehabber. Can we find the bloody thing now? No. Been searching for this bird for over an hour in the mud & dark. We know it's here and the wing is damaged. I don't want to leave without it.