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Suae (monuluge): This was something i’ve never heard before. I always thought he looked after Yoo Raim because he liked her. It had never even crossed my mind that there might be another reason. But… Suae: …Even if you two really had been half-siblings, it wouldn’t change anything. It would just mean I mattered even less to you than a half-sister you only looked after out of guilt. So don’t make excuses. Eunhyuk:…I’m sorry. Suae: Don’t apologize either. I don’t want to hear it. What’s the point of apologizing now, when I practically have to drag it out of you…?I think this situation has given you the wrong idea. I only used you because I didn’t have anyone else suitable to be my guardian. It doesn’t mean I want to make up with you. Eunhyuk: …Okay. Suae: …I’ll tell you a secret, too. There’s something I didn’t get to say back then in the parking lot. The truth is I wanted you to suffer. Really, really badly. I wanted to believe that life had become so unbearable for you, that you’d been pushed so far into a corner, so desperate that you had no choice but to abandon everything and run away. Because I thought that would make me feel a little less miserable. There were days when I’d cry because I was worried you might be falling apart. And then, one day I realized that I’d actually rather you were suffering terribly than living a perfectly happy life. …How do you think I felt when I realized that? Eunhyuk: If I’d been hurting and suffering as much as you wanted me to… would you hate me a little less? Suae: I already spent all those years believing that was the case. That’s the only reason I can even treat you like this now. You should’ve just never come back. You should’ve stayed broken in my memories. Someone I could pity, someone I could feel sorry for, someone whose actions I could at least try to understand. You could’ve at least spared me the sight of you living perfectly fine, as if nothing had happened. …… Suae (monuluge): I had said those words without hesitation, but I couldn’t bring myself to look him in the face, so I listened for any movement behind me. Go Eunhyuk remained silent for a moment. Then, he quietly approached me, pulled the blanket up to my shoulders, and left the hospital room. I’m gonna kms

Eunhyuk finally told Suae about Raim and that he thought she was his half sister 😭😭😭 “Shim Suae, are you asleep? When I was little, I saw a magazine in my dad’s study. It was lying open on the table, all crumpled up, and that’s where I saw Yoo Raim. She was with her mother. At the time, my dad was arguing with someone over the phone about something in that magazine… and I got the wrong idea. I thought Yoo Raim was my… half-sister. You know what my dad’s like with women. And the things he was saying on the phone just happened to be easy to misinterpret. I guess I was a pretty precocious kid for an elementary schooler. So I always looked out for her. Maybe it was guilt or something, because I thought she was the daughter of a woman whose life my dad had ruined. I only found out recently that I’d been wrong about the whole thing… But it turns out she knew what I’d mistakenly believed all along and just let me keep believing it. She used my misunderstanding to her advantage. …When I left like that back then, of course I cut off contact with Yoo Raim, too. Then, a few years later we happened to run into each other again. It’s true that we kept in touch from time to time after that, but… It wasn't because she was an exception to me.”