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I want to clarify what happened that night at Columbus and share my experience in my own words. I was extremely intoxicated. I couldn’t walk on my own, and I was not in a state where I felt capable of consenting to anything physical. I did not want anything physical to happen. For context, I was at my own BNB with several people, including Iconz. I have small, fragmented memories of that night, and eventually, I blacked out. I don’t want to claim certainty about details I genuinely cannot remember. At one point, there were six of us downstairs. Two people left, leaving four of us: me, Iconz, and two community members. I remember listening to music, being on TikTok, and spending time with everyone. Eventually, one of the community members left as well and being offered drinks. I don’t remember exactly when the other staff member left, and my memories become unclear from that point onward. I don’t remember being alone with Iconz or what happened afterward. One of my teammates later told me that she came downstairs to check on me and found me pinned against the wall, with Iconz kissing me and my shirt partially down. I was told that Iconz backed away and said, “Shit,” before I fell down the wall, afterwards his reaction was extremely weird and was kicked out of my bnb. I don’t personally remember it all. My understanding of what happened during that time comes from what my teammates told me they witnessed. I have vague memories. A few weeks after the LAN, they spoke to me about what they had seen and helped me understand what happened during the time I couldn’t remember. I’m grateful to my teammates for checking on me and looking out for me that night. @tashagd_ @ChemereHazy @ellelie_ they all have their perspective to share. I’m sharing this to explain my experience and make clear that I did not want what happened. I don’t want to speculate about details I can’t remember, but I also don’t want my lack of memory to prevent me from speaking about what I was told happened to me. I just want to move forward from that night. My heart dropped when I heard the details it’s a scary situation that I needed time to process.